yes 2 in a week. don’t get used to it

I was going through some old papers and found this quote…

O Lord, you know what is the better way; let this or that be done as you please. Give what you will and how much you will and when you will. Deal with me as you know best and in a way that will bring you the most honor. Put me where you will and deal with me in all things as you will. I am in your hand; turn me around and turn me back again like a wheel. I am your servant , prepared for all tings. For I desire not to live for myself but only for you.

-Thomas a Kempis

Add a comment June 8, 2008

A myriad of thoughts…

so I’m not too good about this whole writing thing…

can i just say my freshman year of college is done?! uhmm hello. crazy.

I remember coming to visit and getting the tour
looking at the dorms
convinced I was going to another college
thinking I’ll never fit all of my stuff into a dorm room
packing
moving in
meeting everyone at orientation
going out for the first time without having to get permission 
having to do hw without anyone down my throat telling me to
realizing that all nighters would become quite common
realizing 12 hrs of sleep doesn’t happen.
using shower shoes becomes so much of a habit you feel like you’re missing something when back home.

anyhow. at Bible study the other day we talked about how people like to be so busy.  We don’t like to focus on the now, on our problems or what’s stressin us out.  Staying busy is way to keep our minds occupied.  We’re always looking to what’s next instead of enjoying the present and what God is doing now. It’s so true. In middle school we can’t wait to get to highschool, then in highschool which means getting your license, we can’t wait to go to college, when in college you can’t wait to begin your career, get married, kids and so on…you’re always looking one step ahead.  Goals are not a bad thing, but we should also be enjoying the present and of what God is doing right now in our lives.

uhmmm and tonight. I went to my old youth group. and the message was on friendships and he used Jonathan and David as examples showing different aspects to their friendship.  He talked about how people will have “best friends” and then one screw up and you’re no longer friends.  You let something get in between you.  Not only should know that each other will screw up, but we need to be the kind of friend Jonathan was to David.  It was convicting on my part just because I know there is someone who used to be my best friend and we have let little things get between us and we now haven’t talked in really like a year.  Friendships take hard work on both ends. Someone who will tell you the truth when you don’t want to hear it, someone who is honest, humble, giving, caring, and encouraging.  Yes, we want those kinds of friends, but am I that kind of friend? At the beginning I felt that the message was basic or elementary, but I know I was definitely convicted about a few friendships I need to fix.

Anyhow, in other news. my summer has been filled with babysitting, babysitting, and uhmm more babysitting.  That will be my life for the next 3 weeks.  I then leave for THAILAND!!!! wooooh!!!! I’m SO excited  

Hope everyone else is doing well having a great summer!!!!

Love, Jen

1 comment June 5, 2008

This is my prayer.

Holy design
This place in time
That I might seek your face, my God
My God

Lord I want to yearn for You
I want to burn with passion
Over You, and only You
Lord I want to yearn for You
I want to burn with passion
Over You, and only You
Lord I want to yearn

Your joy is mine
Yet why am I fine
With all my singing and bringing grain
In light of Him

Oh You give life and breath
In You we live and move
That’s why I sing

Add a comment April 17, 2008

Jen has spoken.

Alrighty. so after much demand, I’m actually going to attempt a real blog post. be proud.   

I haven’t actually decided or really thought about what I  really wanted to blog about.   I’m slightly inexperienced at this but I used to do xanga…does that count for anything? lol 

uhmmm…. life. Life is great.  Ever since coming to Southeastern I’ve learned so much.  Especially this semester.  One thing I really came to realization was how shallow my faith was.  Everything I had learned was Sunday School type as well of course handed down from my parents.  Which isn’t necessarily a bad thing, and makes a good foundation, but my faith had never really been challenged.  I was content with where I was at.  So with this realization, these past few months I’ve tried to challenge myself with a lot of my beliefs and why I believed that.  I’ve been reading the Bible and simply just trying to find out what I believe and what is Biblical.  My eyes have been opened on a lot of issues that I thought I knew what I believed, and I’ve realized how wrong I was and amazingly awesome God is.  Some things I’m definitely still trying to figure out…if you’re reading this, you probably know what I”m talking about.  haha.  

My other realization was trusting God.  One of my favorite verses used to be Prov 3:5-6 “trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your understanding…”   It sounds simpler said that done.  I’ve had so many issues per se that I’ve realized are pretty much out of my hands, and that I need to trust God completely.  Not with just the little easy things, but with absolutely everything… be it with friends, mission trips, boys, money, and results of me being a klutz.   For example I’m supposed to be going to Thailand in the summer for over a month.  I’ve been sooo excited about this but also extremely worried about how I was supposed to raise so much money. So I started working at school.  I had just started putting money aside when i got in my uhh…accident.  Now I have no way of raising the money working for a least a couple months. I also might have to have surgery which would put me out of work right before the trip.  As hard as it is and hard to understand, I’m trusting God that if He wants me to go on it, He will provide the money and also that I’ll rely on Him more than ever. 

 My last realization is this. I’m am a procrastinator.  I’ve always known this, but not to this extent, as you can see the results of it being that this is my first real post. haha O. and I’ve decided that Sebts should have a degree in socializing. It would make my life so much easier.   

in other news. easter break has been..uhmm…different than my other breaks.  I’ve been home a lot more, being that I can’t drive right now, many doctor appointments, and more family time.  I guess this is a good thing. I definitely miss the Wa-fo and everyone there.    

I hope this blog is to everyone’s satisfaction.  If not, my apologies.  but this is me and my thoughts over the past months. 

Hope everyone has a superb and blessed Easter!!! Pray that traveling will go smoothly for me. thaaanks!

 

 

2 comments March 22, 2008

Hello world!

I just wanna say I’m not a puritan.

just reformed

7 comments February 28, 2008